GUILTY!

That's me.

When I have extra calories available to consume, I have issues.

If I eat something unplanned, I feel guilty.
If I eat something that isn't fruits, vegetables, lean-meats or low-fat dairy, I feel guilty.
If I eat larger portions of foods than I normally have (set in my brain as "good portions"), I feel guilty.
If I enjoy my food too much and want more, I feel guilty.
If I actually have more, I feel guilty.

BUT at the time I think

If there is something you are craving, eat in now
If there is something you want with lots of sugar, eat it now
If... sometimes I don't even need a damn if just, eat it now

Yesterday was long-run day.  I burned somewhere around 1500 calories, which gave me over 3000 calories to eat.  Combined with Easter, I was originally excited that I could indulge "guilt-free".  So what did I do? I indulged.  I counted all my calories, and I logged everything.

At the end of the day, looking back at my menu, I started feeling guilty.  Was that too much chocolate? Should I have eaten more fiber? Should I have had more Turkey instead of this or that?  I could have had more vegetables, I could have said no to chocolate, I could have______.

Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda.... right?

Why can't I just be happy that I stayed in my calories?