Saturday, 4 January 2014

Jones'n

I'm just finishing up the 15th day of... my diet? my lifestyle change? my altered eating plan?  My goodness I don't even know what to call it.  This round of healthy lifestyle motivation and action <--- That covers it but it way too long... TROHLMAA... Yeah that acronym doesn't work either.  Whatever you want to call it, I've done FIFTEEN DAYS!

So now what, now I really have to fight the urge to get on the scale.  Part of me wants to see what results would show up.  The other part of me questions if it should mean anything at all. 

I have maintained a healthy diet with no "cheats" for just over 2 weeks now. I feel a little better. I have more energy, motivation and will power.  Those are all plusses.  

Being that I tend to get a little obsessive with the numbers, triggering other behaviors, I really think it's much healthier for me mentally to just keep going and trust the process.  

With all that said, the addict in me still wants to know what the numbers say. 

Hopefully once I feel the physical differences, it will become easier to stay away from the scale!!

Wednesday, 1 January 2014

If I don't weigh myself, will I still lose weight?

Happy New Year Everyone!

Yep, I didn't write hear much in 2013.  Not that I didn't have much to say, but I was very busy taking on too much and eating my feelings and stress.

What did I get up to?  Well I had my 3rd baby (Read my home-birth story here) I started a new business, became obsessed with cloth diapers, and then babywearing, and learned what its really like having 3 children of my own to take care of.  (In addition to the extra friends we have come to play 5 days a week).

I would say 2013 was still a year of transformation, and an important year for Megan 2.0, but rather than seeing the results on the scale, I saw them in how I am as a mother and person to others.  I have taken a new "crunchier" path in my life that is a little more family and environment focused.  Now don't get all freaked out, I didn't completely change, just altered the way I do and look at a few things.

For those that don't know me well and are just starting to follow Megan 2.0 I offer a disclaimer:

This blog/facebook page may not be for you if you are sensitive to real honest talk, and the occasional set of swear words.

2014

January 1st 2014, I have a clean slate.  I realize I once again need to regain focus on myself and my health.  Hopefully in a very balanced way.  2011-2012 was great for weight-loss but I feel like I really got caught-up and even obsessed with it to the point where it was causing some anxiety issues for me.  

How can I change my game-plan to prevent that from happening again?

Well, for 2014, I have decided to toss the scale.  Yep, you saw that right, I'm getting rid of it.   I'm terrified... If I don't weigh myself, am I still losing weight?  I hope so.  When I look back to my most successful weight-loss attempt, I didn't weight myself often.  I just focused on making healthy choices every day and balancing my lifestyle.

I was talking to my mom this morning and played it out.  If I lost, on average, 1 pound a week, honestly I would be very frustrated. BUT if I wait to weigh myself until next New Years Eve and see that I lost 45-50lbs, well that would be very rewarding.

Here's the most difficult part of this post... I am currently at my heaviest weight ever.  I feel like a GIANT LOSER admitting that to everyone and I am embarrassed and ashamed of how far off track I have come.

Today I commit that I am stopping now.  NO FUCKING MORE.

Now I carry on my journey and become a little more health focused in a balanced way that can become an attainable lifestyle for me.

BOOM! I'm back ;)

Tuesday, 19 March 2013

It's a bird, it's a plane, it's a.... Blog post from Megan 2.0?

Hello? Is anyone still out there??

Yes pregnancy has side-tracked me from the health part of my journey. Many days/months of fatigue, nausea, discomfort, and food have been my norm lately. Just trying to get by and fell into some old habits.

Good news is, I'm feeling better (energy-wise anyhow) and therefor am starting to make healthier choices and get some exercise in!!

So far I have gained 32lbs. I'm 27 weeks pregnant so that is over the recommended weight gain for pregnancy. It's different for me because my last two pregnancies I lost weight in the beginning and didn't gain this much overall. On fact with my daughter I ended at my start weight.

I have decided that it's time to man-up and do the best I can for the remaining 3 months of my pregnancy to make things easier once this baby is here.

Speaking of baby... We found out we are having another girl! I'm bound to be an alcoholic in the future as the thought of having two TEEN girls is enough to launch me into a full-blown panic attack.

Anyhow, hopefully I will be back to updating my blog and continuing on my journey while pregnant as best I can :)

Wish me luck :)





Sunday, 30 December 2012

2012 Review (I did what?!)

At this point in the year, finishing off 'only' 10lbs lighter than I started... I'm not going to lie, I feel like a failure.  All those workouts, all my tracking, all for what... 10 measly pounds?

Well, lets break it down a bit here.  I started out the year with the 30 day shred and completed it...

Then I took on Chalean Extreme for 3 months. I finished month one and two but in April I injured my hip and stopped most activity aside from walking.

Speaking of my hip injury, I injured it during a 14 KILOMETER run!  Who would have thought... especially when I was 307lbs that I (Megan Armstrong) would RUN for 14k straight! Well I did stop to pee once, but other than that, I did NOT stop!

After that I took it pretty easy until June.  I struggled during that time, feeling like a failure with my injury and ate my feelings.  Then one of my friends suggested... THE KUSAM KLIMB (caps for dramatic effect only... I'm not really yelling people). Just a brief overview (you can click the link for full details) but it was a 23k course up and over a freaking mountain... and I saw a real live hungry bear.


After the climb my knee and hip still weren't treating me well so I drifted in the land of the unknown, a place where I wanted to workout but couldn't for... pretty much the rest of the year.  I tried Weight Watchers from August to October, but had to quit due to the fact that I got infected with child.  (<= That is just my dry humor, I absolutely LOVE whatever being I am creating in uterus land... Just in case you think I'm horrible for referring to my pregnancy that way... trust me, I've said WAY worse).




Then came morning sickness, fatigue and all the other joys that aren't super conducive to living a super healthy lifestyle.

Also the second half of the year I have had to deal with my own personal battle with anxiety and a few other personal family issues that took my focus away.

SO... *breath*  even though I am 'only' 10lbs lighter, I have also accomplished amazing things, I have gained a fetus, and I am (currently) back on track living a healthy lifestyle (thanks to no more morning sickness and not being as big as a whale yet!).

One last thing, and its definitely not the least... I have been a pretty darn awesome mom to my two kiddos!!


Lots of people are talking about goals for next year.  This new years, I'm not putting any extra pressure on anything. I will try my best to live each day to its full potential while balancing it with relaxation, family time and rest off my feet once I'm at full-blown-fetal-capacity!

Thursday, 27 December 2012

The End Of A Year!

There is no question that my momentum slowed this year. I was on fire for the first few months but started having trouble around March when I started Chalean Extreme.  Then I suffered a hip injury that plagued me for the rest of the year (I can STILL feel it now).  I managed to renew my motivation until an issue in my personal life through me for a huge loop and then later I found out I was pregnant.

However, I started the year at 245, my low was about 215 in early may, and now at 15 weeks pregnant I am back up to 232.  This means that overall... my year has still been a success.  I am still down 75lbs total from my heaviest, and can only concentrate on moving forward!

I hope that in 2013 I can live a healthy pregnancy lifestyle until baby is born, take some recovery time and then get back to my Megan 2.0 Project self.  I found I got a lot of motivation from my last pregnancy, so hopefully I gain some from this one too!

Looking forward to getting back to blogging as well as it has been quite a break for me.  At the end of the Summer I said I was dealing with some things that I would explain later, and those issues were anxiety.  I had a few panic attacks and some daily anxiety creep up and have tried very hard to simplify my life to remove and extra stresses and really concentrate on my mental state.

I am doing much better when it comes to that now, and although I have put things in place in my life to prevent the anxiety, it is no longer a daily issue for me to battle it.

So here is to a positive and productive 2013!!



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