It's really happening

11 days on plan

11 days!! 

It's not a ton, but it's the best I have done since last May, and at this point I feel much more dedicated. 

I always wonder though, what prevented me from succeeding previously? 

Why is it always so hard?  Why do

I consistently end up crashing? 

How come I don't always have the strength to make the choices I know will benefit me in the long run, not just in the moment? 

I wish I had an answer. 

There has not been a single day since j fell off track from Megan 2.0 that I haven't thought about my weight. Not one. Every week I would have good intentions. Every week I would end up tossing fresh veggies (since expired) because I made less healthy choices. 

Many weeks I would start off right for a day or two, a meal here and there, and give in. 

So why does it seems to be sticking this time? 

Don't get me wrong, I am incredibly thankful and proud to come this far, but I am curious what happens, what switch flips when you actually land on the right journey at the right time.