I weighed yesterday, and the official weight to start is 225.
I can't be too hard on myself, but that means that I am the same weight I was in February. So, although I have lost and gained, I have made no significant progress (weight-wise) in almost 5 months. I did get down around 220, and stayed there for a long time, I saw 214.8 one time when I lost almost 5lbs in a week, but then a few weeks later I was back up to 220 again. So in my head, I kind of omit the 214.8 (because I wasn`t there long), and therefore feel like I have only really gained 5lbs.
Moving forward, what's on my mind?
Well, I have a personal trainer appointment tomorrow. I'm feeling really sceptical about it. The last time I met with this trainer, I did not pick up a very good vibe from her. I'm hoping it goes well, but I guess we'll see. My number one priority it getting my cardio back up, and while I haven't been to the gym yet this week, I have done the Canyon View Trail several times and had one rest day so far.
Today I plan to either do the Canyon View again, or go for a run. Tomorrow will be my first a.m. workout in weeks, and then next week I intend to resume my a.m. workouts completely. Now that I am
mostly healed less injured I feel like I should be able to get back in the game.
Its funny. In my head I feel SO LAZY and like such a failure for the last few months. Then, really when I think about it... I have been injured! I am supposed to be taking it easy and letting my body heal. I just forget that I am injured and call myself lazy all the time. Then because I feel lazy, I make poor food choices and feel worse. Its such a rough spiral.
Hurt -> Rest -> Feel Lazy -> Eat -> Feel bad for eating -> Feel lazy -> Eat more .... and so on.
Now comes the task of climbing back out of the hole I dug. LUCKILY, I only have a 5lb hole to dig this time. I can get back on track and focus on getting my body into the shape I want it and get to the point in my journey where I can enjoy maintenance which is somewhere between 45-75lbs away. I've already lost 82lbs so I am over half-way no matter which way I split it!!
Also, I have committed to running a half marathon in October. It is now just over 12 weeks away.
One thing is for sure
I NEED TO START TRAINING!!
I will be in control of what goes in my mouth
I will get under the 200lb mark
I will be happy and healthy