When I have extra calories available to consume, I have issues.
If I eat something unplanned, I feel guilty.
If I eat something that isn't fruits, vegetables, lean-meats or low-fat dairy, I feel guilty.
If I eat larger portions of foods than I normally have (set in my brain as "good portions"), I feel guilty.
If I enjoy my food too much and want more, I feel guilty.
If I actually have more, I feel guilty.
BUT at the time I think
If there is something you are craving, eat in now
If there is something you want with lots of sugar, eat it now
If... sometimes I don't even need a damn if just, eat it now
Yesterday was long-run day. I burned somewhere around 1500 calories, which gave me over 3000 calories to eat. Combined with Easter, I was originally excited that I could indulge "guilt-free". So what did I do? I indulged. I counted all my calories, and I logged everything.
At the end of the day, looking back at my menu, I started feeling guilty. Was that too much chocolate? Should I have eaten more fiber? Should I have had more Turkey instead of this or that? I could have had more vegetables, I could have said no to chocolate, I could have______.
Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda.... right?
Why can't I just be happy that I stayed in my calories?